YOU KNOW WHAT?! You are so fucking immature! here I thought this whole time I was the one who was so fucking kiddy and being a little immature bitch. But you know what! it was you who is a fucking hypocrite, immature, little fucking kid. I am so sick of this shit I don’t even want to have anything to do with you anymore! Here I ACTUALLY thought I really wasn’t good enough for you! but you know what! YOU CAN GO SUCK YOUR DICK! AND KISS MY ASS! because there are many people out there who are going to treat me so much better and are gonna appreciate for who I am! I so can’t believe that I didn’t even get to say it first… what a stupid person I am =__= I should of broken it off ages ago! But you know what, I stayed because here I thought that you would change, but it’s not only me… it was you too! If you did not realize it. I so can’t wait till you can actually find another girlfriend who can fucking put up with all your shit like I did. I can’t believe that I just took all your bullshit and crap in, I should of said something AGES ago! but who cares now, all I want now is for you to feel the pain I went through. I fucking don’t care if we can’t be friends anymore, I don’t want anything related to you!! Your the meanest person I have ever met in my life… for you even to say I’m not good enough for you… wow… I expected so much more from you… I thought you were going to be mature about it… but your just a little piece of shit who expects too much, I hope you know that now.

Sincerely,

your ex.

So today… While I was walking home… I saw Anita’s car drive out and I was like oh Anita! *waves* totally forgetting that HE’S in the car… Fml >_> and apparently he was sitting on the side where he could see me… Fml >_> sigh… I just want to disappear right now…. *emo corner* ;_____;

Today, I had a dream of him sleeping next to me I don’t know why I had it now… It was so random… All of a sudden… I could feel him hugging me… And I could feel myself squeezing him and not letting go…. Then I woke up… >_> sigh…

saw pics and posts on Facebook about you…. Seeing you drinking and checking in a far place from me is heartbreaking…. To see you leave… I don’t know how I’m gonna survive… Sigh… Can’t say much anyways… >_>

Anyways gonna sleep hopefully… I feel like I’m gonna pass out for some reason….

So… Today as I was taking a shower to go out for dinner with family… I suddenly bursted into tears…. Crying….in the shower… so randomly… I dunno what got into me… ;___; Anyways… >_> just wanted to jot down what happened today ^_^ anyways done. Cya

For some reason… I want to keep waiting… Even though I may still think about him a lot… I keep thinking he would come back… just can’t help that feeling…. I hope it doesn’t kill me… Or else I’m really not gonna go anywhere… anyways night…

So I had a serious talk with someone today ^_^ it really helped me though. Even though she’s against me talking to him again… she still helped me that I was at wrong too. Not only he was at wrong but so am I. After realizing this… I wanted to run over to his and say everything I wanted and give the relationship another go, however I was not the one to break it off, So here I am waiting for him to hopefully…. come back… if he doensn’t… then I guess I should give up… but if he does, then I shall consider it and talk it out with him ^_^

Today was suppose to be our 9 months… Sigh… >_> I was really depressed today… I started to get too deep into my thoughts that I was doing stuff wrong at work.. Like omg @_@ a first time I ever did that before >< and yeah… I thought I was gonna cry today too… But you know what… I didn't ^_^ but… Still sad on the inside
I'm glad I have so many people and friends supporting me ^_^ always saving and helping me out when I really need it ^_^ lucky to have such great friends < bye!