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OVER THIS FUCKING SHIT!

Queenie — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 13:25:54 +0000

YOU KNOW WHAT?! You are so fucking immature! here I thought this whole time I was the one who was so fucking kiddy and being a little immature bitch. But you know what! it was you who is a fucking hypocrite, immature, little fucking kid. I am so sick of this shit I don’t even want to have anything to do with you anymore! Here I ACTUALLY thought I really wasn’t good enough for you! but you know what! YOU CAN GO SUCK YOUR DICK! AND KISS MY ASS! because there are many people out there who are going to treat me so much better and are gonna appreciate for who I am! I so can’t believe that I didn’t even get to say it first… what a stupid person I am =__= I should of broken it off ages ago! But you know what, I stayed because here I thought that you would change, but it’s not only me… it was you too! If you did not realize it. I so can’t wait till you can actually find another girlfriend who can fucking put up with all your shit like I did. I can’t believe that I just took all your bullshit and crap in, I should of said something AGES ago! but who cares now, all I want now is for you to feel the pain I went through. I fucking don’t care if we can’t be friends anymore, I don’t want anything related to you!! Your the meanest person I have ever met in my life… for you even to say I’m not good enough for you… wow… I expected so much more from you… I thought you were going to be mature about it… but your just a little piece of shit who expects too much, I hope you know that now.

Sincerely,

your ex.

Didn’t see, but you did.

Queenie — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 06:58:21 +0000

So today… While I was walking home… I saw Anita’s car drive out and I was like oh Anita! *waves* totally forgetting that HE’S in the car… Fml >_> and apparently he was sitting on the side where he could see me… Fml >_> sigh… I just want to disappear right now…. *emo corner* ;_____;

Morning dream…

Queenie — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 06:28:18 +0000

Today, I had a dream of him sleeping next to me I don’t know why I had it now… It was so random… All of a sudden… I could feel him hugging me… And I could feel myself squeezing him and not letting go…. Then I woke up… >_> sigh…

Don’t go anywhere…

Queenie — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 15:35:30 +0000

saw pics and posts on Facebook about you…. Seeing you drinking and checking in a far place from me is heartbreaking…. To see you leave… I don’t know how I’m gonna survive… Sigh… Can’t say much anyways… >_>

Anyways gonna sleep hopefully… I feel like I’m gonna pass out for some reason….

Random crying ;__;

Queenie — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 12:10:09 +0000

So… Today as I was taking a shower to go out for dinner with family… I suddenly bursted into tears…. Crying….in the shower… so randomly… I dunno what got into me… ;___; Anyways… >_> just wanted to jot down what happened today ^_^ anyways done. Cya

Waiting

Queenie — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 17:06:51 +0000

For some reason… I want to keep waiting… Even though I may still think about him a lot… I keep thinking he would come back… just can’t help that feeling…. I hope it doesn’t kill me… Or else I’m really not gonna go anywhere… anyways night…

Serious talk.

Queenie — Fri, 27 Jan 2012 16:24:47 +0000

So I had a serious talk with someone today ^_^ it really helped me though. Even though she’s against me talking to him again… she still helped me that I was at wrong too. Not only he was at wrong but so am I. After realizing this… I wanted to run over to his and say everything I wanted and give the relationship another go, however I was not the one to break it off, So here I am waiting for him to hopefully…. come back… if he doensn’t… then I guess I should give up… but if he does, then I shall consider it and talk it out with him ^_^

26th…

Queenie — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 15:30:30 +0000

Today was suppose to be our 9 months… Sigh… >_> I was really depressed today… I started to get too deep into my thoughts that I was doing stuff wrong at work.. Like omg @_@ a first time I ever did that before >< and yeah… I thought I was gonna cry today too… But you know what… I didn't ^_^ but… Still sad on the inside
I'm glad I have so many people and friends supporting me ^_^ always saving and helping me out when I really need it ^_^ lucky to have such great friends < bye!

Crying over and over….

Queenie — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 12:48:25 +0000

I thought it wouldn’t hurt me as much, however it hurts more than anything else in the world right now. Crying non stop every second I think about him :’( I guess relationships are dangerous things, however people still take the risk. I really did think it would be fine… I never thought anything like this would happen….

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I STILL WANT TO BE WITH HIM!!!! I WANNA HUG HIM!! I WANT HIM TO HUG ME TO SLEEP!!! I WANT HIM TO STOP MY TEARS… I WANT HIM TO BE HERE FOR ME!!!! WHY ISN’T HE HERE WHEN I NEED HIM MOST?!!!!! HE PROMISED ME!!!! HE SAID HE WOULDN’T LEAVE!!!!!! WHY ISN’T HE HERE TO PROTECT ME!!!!! WHERE IS HE!? I WANT HIM BY MY SIDE…

I’LL GIVE ANYTHING UP FOR HIM TO BE HERE NEXT TO ME!!!!

I CAN’T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!! I CAN’T SURVIVE WITHOUT HIM!!! I WANT HIM HERE!!!! I NEED HIM!!!!! I NEED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need him….. :’(

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what’s he doing going to a cosplay event tomorrow….

tomorrow was suppose to be our 9 months… :’(

wahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can’t take it!!!!!!

I DON’T KNOW WHY I WORRY AND CARE FOR HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!! :’(

i kept on checking on his fb too…. so much… see what he was doing, to see if he’s okay…. but i can’t tell with just his fb….

i want to see him….. :’(

I WANT TO SEE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :’(

I can’t take it not seeing him…

Queenie — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 11:30:37 +0000

HAY EVERYONE! LONG TIME NO SEE RIGHT?! omg how I missed blogging anyways so just saying here… since no one reads my blog…today is Chinese New Years! wew! and you also know what?! I got dumped! Like haha yeah? getting dumped on chinese new years… man. I really don’t know what to say to this aye… it’s like not like I wasted my time… I got to admit that I was happy with him… I can’t lie to myself.. But I don’t regret it either… truthfully, I still want to be with him.. but it’s just that he doesn’t accept who I am. He was trying to change me into someone else. And I obviously couldn’t do it… that’s just not me, I should be who I want to be. I don’t want to be a locked up in a cage where I can’t freely be myself. Like in front of my friends… I could be free… whoever… I had to force myself to not do that with you. Sigh.. thinking about all this.. is just making me tearing…. sigh >_>

Sigh… okay just gonna continue typing.. ignoring tears >_> anyways I can’t wait till I get over this shit, seriously.

One month yeah?? that’s what this picture tells me….

lolz.. man… that first picture of the girl… kinda looks like me when i was crying last night… :’(

anyways, hope you all enjoyed my sad story of my break up. cya. ima go get rid of these tears.